Update!

I just realized how long it has been since my last post. It is probable that nobody reads this but on the off-chance that they do, I don't want them to miss out on several months worth!

In April, my husband and I went to Hawaii and it was absolutely amazing. We stayed on Kuai, and for the first portion of the 10 day trip, we rented a house in Kapa'a, which was absolutely gorgeous, modern, wall full of windows sort of house and was amazing. It was the most inspirational place I have ever been too. The southern portion on the island as well as the southwest is very arid and desert-like. The north and northwest of the island is a rain forest, and the eastern side is temperate. It was absolutely amazing to be able to visit each portion and enjoy the weather no matter wherever we were on the island. I felt at home there as I never have anywhere else, a connection to the writer in me, but then again, that may just be wishful thinking and the pleasantness of it being my husband's an my one-year anniversary/honeymoon trip.

After that, I finally got my Thyroid levels all figured out and the green light to start trying to get pregnant.

As far as work has been concerned, I also took on the role of Communications Director at the community and have really enjoyed the opportunity and challenges presented when facing the restructuring and retraining of employees for a department that was already in existence, although playing a different role.

My crochet club ladies and I are also working hard to make sure that we have crafts for our Alzheimer's Silent Auction coming up next month and hopefully we will have quite a few things to show for our efforts. I have raised some money online on my website and really appreciate any and all of the donations for that.

I don't really know what else to add at the moment. My husband is doing wonderfully and I am very proud of him and what he is working on as Director of Marketing at his company, and the cats are sleeping and purring away, just waiting for their next set of pets....and maybe a snack :) Until next time.

Time to think.

Sometimes, there seems to be too much time to think. One ends up examining, re-examining, and then further contemplating the same examinations of the feelings and/or ideas they began with. If you have ever done this, you are like me....and yes, you have issues :).

I have found myself in this rut several times in the past few months. For a while, I had to seriously contemplate where my career was heading and if I really wanted to be a part of that direction. After a long debate and conversation with myself and my husband, I decided that this is, indeed, what I want....which kind of sucked. It is much more difficult to stay somewhere that you have decided is going to be a right fit for you at some point and still try to fit your round peg into that square hole. So, a month later, I believe things are somewhat settling down into a regular pattern and working out more smoothly, which I definitely like. Still, I will have to be wary of any advanced signs of boredom.

My health has been improving steadily, although the hormones are still not completely regulated, I will go back in the beginning of March to find out what the next step is, if any. Hopefully the tests will come back well and I won't have to change anything, but I have a feeling that will not be the answer I receive. It is frustrating having to hold off on having children but the hormone regulation is very important for child development and my stress level which also affects child development, so I am trying to be patient. Even still, my weight is still climbing. The Wii fit has helped me get back into the mood to exercise but seems to limit my drive somewhat. I find myself yearning for warmer temperatures so I can start jogging and work my way up to running. If I can keep this drive in my mind, I believe that I can lose weight and gain my thinner physique.

My husband and I are doing very well. We have a few bumps in the road but what couple doesn't? I think that my health still affects us somewhat and my hours at work definitely have an effect on my patience with my husband, but he is perfect in the way he loves me for myself, the good and the bad. I love him the same way and although he does drive me crazy or upset me or frustrate me sometimes, I know that we will always get through things together. After the past year, I don't know how I would even begin to doubt that!

Social life - nonexistent. Mainly because of work, but also because I simply don't have many long-term friends in this area. One of my friends lives pretty close but he works a lot and usually at the opposite times that I do so it does not work out to hang out very often with him. Still, I need to try and make time to hang out with my friends more often, lest I begin to lose them. Still, I have begun to develop friendships with people at work (wow that sentence sounds cold, but true). I really enjoy what I do and who I work with, but not necessarily the constraints of how it must get accomplished. Such is life, however, and one must sometimes adhere to the standards before one can change them.

Personally I am working on my issues. I have been seeing a psychologist about the things that I need help working through. While I understand that no change comes overnight and a thought process change for someone who is always concentrating on thoughts is probably even more difficult (can't just stop and reboot), I have to try and work at it. Meanwhile I am falling asleep at my desk and have to be at work tomorrow, so I suppose I should probably head to sleep.

A Rose

This new post, because of the new year, should really focus on what has gone on since my last post, but it will not. Instead, it will focus on my favorite flower, the rose...specifically, the red rose.

To call it a miracle may seem trite, but it's simplistic, elegant beauty does remind me of miracles. Everything from the sateen velvety finish on the petal to the strength and fierceness of the stem and thorns makes me think. The smell tickles my nose....as all smells seem to, but I truly enjoy the scent of the rose and so cannot resist smelling them. The petals are both stretchy and yet strong for the fragility they present. Maybe it is the direct opposition of the petals to the sturdy stem and imposing thorns that makes all the difference of the rose.

Red is by far the only color I love. While all of the other colors are beautiful and plentiful, there is only one that represents boldness and passion. A vibrant declaration of feelings for another. Forgive the sweetness of the pinks or the steadiness of the whites, for they are beautiful but can never compare with a deep, vivid, red rose.